9.67 miles (total: 2,151.43 miles)
Good run today! Tiring, humbling, joyful and bit painful at times. As any run, it helped to hear that inner voice inside you that always knows "the right thing to do". The tiring part was due to three reasons: not enough training, not enough training and not enough training.. But as the saying by Haruki Murakami goes: pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. Say you are running and you think: "man, this hurts, I can’t take it anymore. The ‘hurt’ part is an unavoidable reality, but whether or not you can stand anymore is up to the runner." That's the essence, how much are you willing to suffer. Knowing why you (want to) suffer helps, at times transcends it into a almost a religious experience :). I can't quite explain it - you have to experience it, especially when there is pain in the parts of the body that you didn't even think existed..
I went to the doctor's office yesterday and got my medical results. I am anemic, with iron and vitamin B deficiency. That’s the culprit behind the recent fatigue, dizziness and the large weight loss. Both M and I vegetarians - he has not eaten meat or fish or chicken since birth. And me - I've stopped meat, fish, chicken and dairy - so here we are... at least now that I know what to do to alleviate some of this - will take vitamins, eat more spinach and lentils to compensate.. My mother was relieved to hear that my thyroid is fine. Since Chernobyl (I was about 124 miles away when Chernobyl happened in 1986) in Belarus, so the childhood was spent on iodine tablets. But as adult recovered. All good now. Look at me now :) a former child of Chernobyl, I can kick some butt.
When I ran today I looked up at the sky. Clouds and sun were in harmony. At times, the sun was so beautiful, which filled my heart with happiness. Clouds are always taciturn. I've thought, I probably shouldn't be looking up at them, what I should be looking at is inside of me. What do I see there? Do I see kindness there? Do I see beauty there? No, all I see is my own nature. My own individual, stubborn, uncooperative often self-centered nature that still self-doubts herself... I've carried this character around like an old suitcase. Still, I guess I have grown attached to it - that character. As you might expect..
I feel "clean" after the run.
Everything will be good in the end. And if not, that means it is not yet the end :)
- Bored Runner
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