5.21 miles (total: 1650.56 miles)
I am dreaming, while running.. Is there such a thing as having too much hope? When we are afraid of having too much hope, we are actually afraid of being disappointed. So we dream small or not at all. Because if we expect nothing or expect something small, we cannot be disappointed when the big things don't happen. We think it's a great defense mechanism, but what it really is... it is foolishness. When we are afraid of thinking things can be too good, it can become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Life absolutely can be a filth bucket, even for those who TRY and STRIVE and DREAM. The difference is that those people can go to sleep at night and wake up in the morning knowing that they at least tried...
My small daily runs, I take some small solace that I did what I could.
Being audacious enough to dream that I can run for a year non-stop, without having any impact on the rest of my life :) - being also a lot older - that's trying to imagine that my life can be bigger than I imagined it before. It has been amazing discovering it, with all the fears and limitations and humbleness that come along with it.
I have 80 days left, and I look forward to each and every one of these 80 runs.
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